Life is Like a Rubik's Cube

You know it's funny how in every phase of your life you tend to associate it with something which you are currently doing. Well i just got myself a rubik's cube because someone in the office got themselves one and i have always wanted to learn to solve it and also was always fascinated by it. So i got myself one and i am like super obsessed with it right now.


So why is life like a rubik's cube. Well at least life for the pass 2 yrs that i can think of anyways.
It's like this. When i finished uni, which i deemed as a closing of one chapter of my life. The new chapter was presented to me like a new an un-touched rubik's cube. The whole picture seemed well put together. So to proceed and start the new game, things got scrambled. Coz well that is the whole point of a rubik's cube anyways. You are suppose to scramble it and then put it together. Else it's like just for decoration. So I started my job; scramble, scramble and i started a new relationship. More scrambling. Then it was time to start understanding how things works and putting things the way it suppose to be.

So when i looked at the cube it was like a whole mess of things. And there was so many possibilities. But where to start? I wanted to put together so many of the color sequence at one time. And so I jumped in. I never read the instruction, i never found any cheat. Coz i am that way. I don't want the answer and i will try and try until i find my own. Even if it kills me trying. Admittedly it is true that the rubik's cube is just so very bad for people with OCD. And i discovered albeit slightly late that i am OCD.

So i jumped into my new chapter of life trying my hardest to solve things my way. Along the way i got overwhelmed. Trying to twist and turn the cube to get to where i want them to be. And sometimes i manage to get one color almost right. And sometimes i manage to fix one color and almost complete another one in the process. But no matter what while attempting the next move, something else gets screwed up. And i end up starring at a whole jumbled up cube once again. So near yet so close. And it gets frustrating. Things just looked so complicated and every next move brought about so many more uncertainties. And so even though i made a few moves, i end up retracing the moves so as not to mess up what has already been solved. But in the end i still do. But along the way, i still discover a few things about certain moves and the picture gets clearer. I remember what does what and i learn a few new things which hopefully i don't forget until the next time i come to the cube again.

And as with the last 2 years, there have been many confusion, many wanting to do 10 things at the same time. Many jumbled up feelings and wants and needs and demands. But with each passing days and experience and thinking and learning, I have come to find that instead of doing a few colors at once, to solve one color at a time. Instead of getting overwhelmed with so many thoughts and wants and needs and demands to take a step back and look at the whole picture. Instead of getting frustrated at the situation to try and think back of the past experience and take a different approach or to take a similar approach which will work. It is funny how when in the beginning how life looked all jumbled up with bits and pieces of colors having no rhyme or reason or match can slowly clear up to form a clear picture.

No i haven't solved my rubik's cube yet. And my life isn't really how i want it to be yet. But well i am taking a different approach now. I am sure everything will sort itself out. Well at least now i have learnt a few moves which might help me along to the right path. At least things looks slightly clearer than when i first started my journey.